:( So sad...sorry for your pain and heartbreak...again.

Hebrews 12:11  Now all discipline seems painful at the time, not joyful.  But later it produces the fruit of peace and righteousness for those trained by it.   1 Corinthians 13:4-7  Love is patient, love is kind, it is not envious. Love does not brag, it is not puffed up. It is not rude, it is not self-serving, it is not easily angered or resentful. It is not glad about injustice, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.   Isaiah 42:16  I will lead the blind along an unfamiliar way;  I will guide them down paths they have never traveled.  I will turn the darkness in front of them into light, and level out the rough ground.  This is what I will do for them. I will not abandon them.   James 1:2-4  My brothers and sisters,  consider it nothing but joy when you fall into all sorts of trials, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect effect, so that you will be perfect and complete, not deficient in anything.     Philippians 1:6  For I am sure of this very thing,  that the one  who began a good work in  you will perfect it  until the day of Christ Jesus.   1 John 5:4  because  everyone  who has been fathered by God  conquers  the world. This  is the conquering power  that has conquered  the world: our faith.   :) This is that TRUTH I have been telling you about. Yes, you are awesome, but why?  Know the TRUTH and the TRUTH will set you free. You are loved (John 3:16), blessed (Jer. 7:8), redeemed (Deut 28:2-8), called, helped (Psalm 121), saved ( Acts 16:31), forgiven (Psalm 32:1), an overcomer (1 John 4:4), free (Gal. 5:1), and victorious (1 Cor 15:57)---AMONG MANY OTHERS.  This is the truth to believe and to drive away all anxiety, doubt, etc.  This TRUTH makes YOU awesome.