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Life Is Speeding Up

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 11:52:19 GMT

Okay, these past 2 weeks have been kinda crazy. Work is so busy and has left me with little time to myself. I'm not complaining. I'm happy I have a job.

This past week was our yearly sales convention Ambition. Ambition 09 went great. It's a very energetic environment. People are walking around pumped, energized and star struck. LOL. They finally get to mingle with each other and their higher-ups. It's cool for us in Consultant Support too. We finally get to talk face to face with the people we help everyday.

Well, I haven't been doing Kenpo much lately. We're having to work OT now, so that cuts an hour off my personal schedule. That usually excludes a good 3 classes a week for me. The other reason is my knee. I hurt it a couple of weeks back and it's just getting to where I can start moving on it other than just a walk pace. LOL.

I called in yesterday. My allergies these past two or three days have been horrible. :P What can you say, you know? I did get to drop off my truck and have the spark plugs changed. Today I go in at ten AM so I think I'm well enough to make it to work.

Happenings

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 02:25:31 GMT

These recent days have been busy ones. From work to Karate and back. Whew! It's plain nuts. That's okay. I don't mind at all. It's what I want to be doing. I feel kinda bad though. I have a friend who's been dying for me to go visit her and show her how to make rice, but I just can't find the time. I informed her the only free time I have is Monday. I work Monday but I do have the evenings off. I am constantly on the go.

Everyone's been asking me when I'm going back to school. I really want to. I need to make an effort to find a school near my work. I can only go part time. It's better than nothing, right? Cooking is what I want to be doing as a career. Maybe a Quad C school?

Karate is going well. I'm a yellow belt and we test next month. I should move up soon. I've got most of the techniques down. I just have to learn 1 form. I'm sure I'll get it. Woo Hoo! I'm getting excited just thinking about it.

Tomorrow I was supposed to go work out but I told my brother I'd go to a business presentation with him. I don't want to say much right now, so I'll leave it be.

Well, I have sad news. My extended family has lost a couple of pets since I last wrote. Ally, the cat who lived with us for some time was recently hit by a car. She died. :( Kyuken, my brothers Doberman Pincer died too. :( That was really sad for me too. I was close with both animals.

Well, I leave you all with a hug and love. I wish you all the best. Be good.

God Bless,

Justin

It's Been Too Long

Sat, 30 May 2009 23:10:52 GMT

Okay, it's been forever and a day since I've written on here. Life has gotten crazy but is going a lot better. What would life be without it's trials. Well, easy I guess.

I'm still doing the same thing, waking up early. Going to work. Then I usually go to Kenpo. :) I tested and got two stripes. I'll be testing for yellow belt this coming month. I can't wait. The school I go to is a very good school. All the upper belts seek out oportunities to help you improve. I guess it doesn't help that my brother has been going there for quite some time. :P

Work now adays has it's challenges. Working with an ex really makes things tough. Friends one minute, the next min she totally ignores me. I guess I should just say, "Who Cares!?!" It's her loss of a friend. Blah.

Okay, so my friend created a blog and now he wants me to write articles on relationships for him. I guess that is a good match up. I just got out of a relationship (not too long ago). I'm still a bit bitter. LOL That should make for a great article. What should be my first topic? Hmmm.

Well, I must go. I'm going to my brothers and it's a long drive. I'll tty soon.

Justin

Soon To Be Kenpo Student, Justin

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 03:13:36 GMT

Okay, it's very late. 11:06PM and I need to be up early in the morning. :P I wanted to get up at 4:30 but I know that's not going to happen. I'll settle for 5. I have so much to do. Work out, work, church and then work out again. Blah... I'll be fine. Just complaining.

Well, this evening I went to go see my neices and nephews at Kenpo. :) They graduated to yellow belts. I'm so happy for them. My brother goes to that same school so he kinda showed me around. I'm interested in attending that school too. The only issue is the distance. It's pretty far from my job and I'll probably be gone most of the time. I'll just suck it up and sign up. I'm sure it'll be okay, but I still need to pray about it. I don't want to overload myself and be useless. :) If you can, keep me in prayer as well. Life's crazy at times, isn't it?

Well, I'm off to bed. Up in almost 6 hours.

Love you all,

Justin

That Really Special Day

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 11:45:24 GMT

Happy Resurrection Sunday. Yes, I should be getting ready for church, but I just had to tell you all something. I am doing great. I'm happy. Everything is going well. God is good.

I need to start listening to Him more. I am not growing the way I need to be. I've been so self-centered and selfish lately. That all must end. I feel the change that needs to occur in my life has already begun. So now, I need to be patient. God will provide. God will continue to sanctify me.

Well, I hope everyone has a great day.

Justin

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 03:01:38 GMT

Crossfade-Already Gone

I will not leave a letter nothing at all
I'm sure you won't notice that I'm even gone
I wont break this silence we've shared for so long
I will be strong

I will not leave a letter nothing at all
I'm sure you won't notice that I'm even gone
Why did I stay here I stayed for so long
When we're so far gone

I feel so stupid taking this fall
I should have seen it known all along
I won't break this silence we've shared for so long
I will be strong

What could you possibly want from me
Can't you see I'm already gone
Everything we thought we'd be
I still don't feel sorry for this loss

I will not waste a moment thinking these thoughts
Forgetting comes easy
I never cared at all
Hurt became hate now I'm feeling the strain
There's just too much pain
Fell into pieces, got swept away
Left all our pictures, some to fade
I won't break this silence we've shared for so long
I will be strong

What could you possibly want from me
Can't you see I'm already gone
Everything we thought we'd be
I still don't feel sorry for this loss

You don't have to say anything at all
I wont stop you from walking away
I'll do nothing at all

Sitting here I waste a day,
While the memories fade away,
You know I expected so much more from you

Dallas, Plano, Denton, Back To Dallas

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 00:57:29 GMT

Okay, my life here lately has been nuts! I've been working in Downtown Dallas (The West End) since the beginning of August. It's a great job. I have so much fun and have made so many wonderful friends. That's beside the reason for this entry.

At work, we've implemented (don't get bored) a new phone system. The thing didn't work well at all, and yet my company still decided to move forth with our move to Plano. We show up Monday morning and just like when we were at the previous call center, the phone system didn't work. So, my boss's made a decision to take several of us up to our back up call center in Denton just to keep business going.

Well, we finally arrive in Denton after an almost hour long drive. Our phone systems for Consultant Care was up and down. So at the end of the shift my boss asked us to come back in the morning. Well, we show up, we're there for like an hour and a half (in Denton) and we get the okay to go back.

So we get back to Plano, and the phone systems still are messed up. Customer Care was just sitting there twiddling their thumbs and the handfull of Consultant Care (including yours truely) were getting bombarded with all their calls. Ahhhhhh.... Frustrating. Sorry for complaining so much.

So, after work I go to 24 Hour Fitness to savor my only happy part of the long day (80 mile drive around the metroplex). I have a good work out. When I'm on 635, my boss calls and tells me we're going back to the Dallas office tomorrow. Oh my! Talk about a crazy 2 days!

I just needed to tell someone my frustrations. Is this wrong that I am letting this get to me? I did get gas mileage from my company for all this. Maybe I'm letting other things bother me. I just need to chill out. What do you think?

As its sung on one of my favorite songs, "I'm not insane! I'm not insane!"

Justin

Confustion When It Was Just All Straightened Out

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 23:55:30 GMT

Good afternoon all. Wow, what a day. It started off well. Had it's trials and ended up... well... blah.

The day went by nice. Things that in previous days that were bothering me had left. I was past that little trial then my friend whom I won't name gave me this look. It shook the rest of my day at work. It's just really bothering me.

Okay, you need to understand this person that gave me this look. Her and I have this thing about us that we can look at one another and within a matter of a few seconds, read each others feelings. Today she looked at something I was looking at, looked at me and gave me a look like, "What are you going to do?" That just threw my mind into a state of confusion. Everything that was fitting like a puzzle piece only moments before started to slide further and further from each other.

Of course, in my mind, I'm fighting it because I know the way things actually are. She mentioned something to me that just confused me even more. I know the situation she was talking about but it can't be that way. I am not that type of person to act on things that present themselves to me. She through an idea that of course is obvious but I don't want to act on it. I'm faithful. And no it's not what you're thinking. I wish I could tell you all what I'm thinking.

If you can, please pray. I need God's answer.

Justin

My Beloved

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 04:10:20 GMT

I love this song. It's by Kari Jobe. It's called, "My Beloved." These lyrics have been of much comfort to me here lately. :)

You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you
My child

You're Beautiful to Me
So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love

Patience

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 00:44:42 GMT

Patience... such a hard thing to learn. When should I go, should I wait? Am I crowding? Am I late? My life's in turmoil, but it's all in my head. Should I continue to blame myself?

I think it is me. It's all in my head. Maybe it's my heart telling me it's time for bed. That may sound silly but it explains my condition, it is more that just an anxiety, maybe it's just love.

Tell me, am I trying to hard? Should I go slow? Is she moving too far? Yes it's distance we need, but it's hurting my heart.

I need to slow down, before I push her away, but in my mind the perfume that I bought her, lingers all day.

Justin